Finding New Inspiration
Hey everybody! Isn’t it funny how sometimes you take a little break and it totally refreshes you? I have had a daily relationship with God all my life, I have always tried to understand Him and where I stand and for the most part that has been done through prayer. However, after discovering Buddhism a few years ago I have also been using meditation and mindfulness…hence the name of this blog! However, recently I have been questioning my choices when it comes to my faith and how I communicate with God. I have always believed that there is one God and all the many religions are just human’s ways of…
Making a fresh start after a depression flare
Hey everybody! Last month was pretty hard for me, I lost my grandmother and I turned 40…yeah I did not appreciate that! I got a little lost in everything, grief kind of took over and I stopped doing a lot of the things that I love. I stopped practising yoga, I stopped eating three meals a day, I stopped looking after myself and I was miserable! I was feeling overwhelmed with grief and I kind of shut down because I couldn’t process everything that happened in such a short space of time. I was starting to think that would never clear away and that I would be stuck with my…
Pacing yourself for special occasions
Hey everybody! Yeah so 16th March I turned 40 and I was not exactly happy about it, though with my poor health over the years and my struggles with depression I was determined to enjoy it. This was also my first birthday without my Nan and Grandad I was closest to so I wanted to make sure I made them proud and had fun, so I had to look at pacing for special occasions so I could survive my plans! I knew I had to do two things so that I could celebrate with both my parents separately and so I decided to spend my birthday, which fell on a…
Pushing through grief
Hey everybody! So first of all I want to apologise for not updating my blog for a week or so, unfortunately I needed a little time to look after my mental health after losing my Grandmother. She was a big part of my life, in fact I think I talked about her in my last post and I am finding the grief hard.I have taken losing her and my Grandad pretty badly because they were two people who taught me so much and loved me so completely and without conditions. It is horrible because I have moments where I forget they are gone and I get a idea to call or…
When emotions make you feel lost
Hey everybody! Wow I sometimes feel a little frazzled and a little lost, like I am too small for this world and I don’t know what I am doing. I have generalised anxiety disorder, which basically means my mind makes me feel anxious all the time and my body is always in fight or flight mode! Even without Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome that in itself is pretty exhausting! So right now my anxiety is really kicking up a storm, I am learning things about my childhood that I either blotted out or was in denial about and my Grandmother is in a hospice coming to the end of her…
Travelling with anxiety
Hey everybody! First of all, the neural blocks I spoke about last post are working, my head is a lot nicer without pain, I will do a full review of how I am doing in a week or so to give them a chance. So, on Wednesday I am off to London to stay with my best friend for two nights and on Thursday we are going to see Hamilton! I love this play so much I definitely got caught up in the amazingness of it and I cannot wait to see it now it is in London as well! I am not going to be there long, I am…
Learn about high-functioning depression
Hey everybody! I was recently contacted by betterhelp.com an online counselling website and app, who wondered if I would be interested in posting the below infographic to spread awareness of high functioning depression. I said yes right away because I personally have suffered with chronic depression since I was fourteen years old and for a long time I wasn’t sure I had depression. Most of the time when this illness is shown on TV or in movies, people don’t get out of bed or get anything done, but if the figures are to be believed this is not how depression usually presents itself. It is important that we all take our…
Pushing passed Guilt with Fatigue
Hey everybody! So it is getting closer to Christmas, with plans for visiting relatives and going out for dinner on the day as well as visiting my elderly Nan are all hovering over me. Of course, my body has chosen right now to get a cold and to hit me hard with fatigue that leaves me laying on the sofa unable to think straight no matter get dinner going! My wonderful husband has epilepsy and his medications make him drowsy and tired, yet he comes home from work and makes dinner, helps me undress and get into bed and listens to me natter on and on about TV shows and…
Coping with depression at Christmas
Hey everybody! Well it is that time of year again, I have cards to make, presents to wrap and right now I just want to fast forward to January and be done with it! Now do not get me wrong I am not a Christmas hater and I am not one to be compared to The Grinch at all! In fact, I always loved this time of year and looked forward to seeing my family and giving presents to people I love. I enjoyed the cheesy films and decorating the house…. Then my Grandad died, and my parents split, my Dad now has a new family he is spending Christmas…
Feeling frustrated at the doctors
Hey everybody! So a couple of weeks ago I posted THIS post, in it I spoke of how I feel let down since my diagnosis was changed from Multiple Sclerosis to Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and neurological problems they did not look into. I felt strange doing it, but I sent the surgery a link to the article and soon was called to see the doctor to discuss it. That appointment was yesterday and I really do not know how I feel about how it went! They listened to me and referred me to people to try and help I have been referred to a rheumatologist to hopefully take over…
