Coping with anxiety during life changes
Hi everybody! At the moment I feel a little like someone just tossed everything that feels safe in my world up in the air and I am running around trying to catch everything! My husband is a police officer, but he has epilepsy and if he has a seizure he will be put on restricted duty. Also, because of his work he gets very stressed, it is high pressure and he gets a lot of hate from the public etc. So when the headquarters set up a job for officers that are on restricted duties for whatever reason my hubby went for it and got it. It has longer travel…
Fighting through fatigue
Hey everybody! So as the year sweeps by me I find myself struggling more with my fatigue, in fact I am not sure it has ever been this bad which worries me to no end! I am someone who has always liked to be active, I have always tried to exercise, I love to read and to learn new hobbies and yet at the moment I can more often than not be found curled up on the sofa doing a zombie stare into space! At the start of this year, I made a promise to myself to start daily yoga and to get more into crafting especially learning to knit…
Chronic Illness bedroom tour
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Mindfulness over frustration
Hey everybody! So since the beginning of the year I have had the same goal, daily yoga and housework…and every week I fall short! I feel sometimes like my goals are far off in the distance and I am stood in molasses trying to pull and struggle towards them. I am stubborn, though I set myself goals that I think are manageable I can feel overwhelming frustration and anger at my body and the illnesses that stop me being able to achieve them! I can at times get snappy with my husband, though I know he is only trying to help me I can feel that frustration bubble to the…
Avoiding boredom when chronically ill
Hey everybody! So I stopped working about 15years ago, the decision to stop was not an easy one for me to make. When I had to leave nursing I had several jobs in shops and as office assistants, but in the end I had to step away from it all because I just could not cope. My pain and fatigue made it difficult, as well as my brain fog which if anyone suffers with it, makes it impossible to learn new things and retain them well enough to do at a job when you throw in social anxiety! At first I just kind of fell into a life online, I…
Let’s talk about materialism
Hey Everybody! So I think I mentioned this in previous posts, but I was an only child and because I had no siblings I was kind of spoilt. If I wanted something either my parents or my grandparents would make it happen. I was always grateful for this, as a child you have no idea about money or it’s worth and getting presents make you feel happy. However, as an adult suffering with depression I found myself turning to shops to make me happy. Because of this I have accumulated a lot of things that I do not need, I have spoken before about my DVD collection! There was a…
Learning to have pride in my achievements
Hey everybody! So I am English and I feel as if we are as a society taught that feeling good about yourself and having pride in the things you do is a bad thing. English people love to moan and be negative about everything it is just in our nature and something that I always bought into! Negative thinking was how I communicated with myself and I had a very low opinion of myself because of it. When I started to study Buddhism and started to realise that I cannot have good energy if I am always negative, I started to work hard to change my thinking. Counselling helped, but it…
How 13 Reasons Why made me thankful
Hey everybody! First of all if you are planning to watch 13 Reasons Why and have not yet seen it this post will contain spoilers so come back to this after watching. Also, there will be mentions of alcoholism, social anxiety, depression, and suicide in here so please be aware of that if you choose to continue. So in 2 days I had watched all the episodes and the documentary of the TV show 13 Reasons Why. This show is about a girl called Hannah who leaves behind 13 cassette tapes each one singling out a different person and why they are part of the reason she decided to commit…
Getting back to daily yoga
Hey everyone! So last post I spoke about my recent realisation that depression has crept back into my life and how I have been inspired by a book I read and film I watched to fight it. I think this is something a lot of people get wrong, depression is a mental illness that is incredibly sneaky! You can go for councelling and read books and do the steps but it is, for people who suffer which chronic depression, a daily fight. I wake in the morning to a noisy brain, anxiety and negative thoughts that make it hard to even want to get out of bed. Every single day…
When depression creeps back in
Hey everybody! Over the past 5 or so years I have been working hard to overcome my mental health issues and find ways to push through them. I had counselling and they taught me to practice mindfulness, to be in the moment and not live in the past. I turned to Buddhism and started to study how to get well. I also got to a point with my anxiety where I could talk to people I didn’t know and take my dog Gizmo on short walks by myself. Then at the beginning of last year it became clear that my Grandad was dying and it is coming up to a…