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Forgiveness with Yoga

Today I talk about how I am learning to forgive my chronic illness for holding me back through Yoga. Hey everybody!

So on January the first I started a 31 day Yoga programme with Yoga with Adriene and I was determined that I was going to get back to daily yoga no matter what! Now we are nearing the end of February and I did day 15 today!

I got to the end of the practice and felt like a failure, I am half way through something I should have long finished because of my stupid fatigue! I used to do daily yoga and I felt good because of it, in fact at one point last year I was able to get up do a little housework, 20minutes of yoga shower then take my dog on a short walk!

It is hard to not look back at that time and think I am now a failure when at the moment I am having to alternate housework and yoga every other day and I am needing a nap every afternoon! My fatigue seems to be getting worse and I wish I knew a way to combat it and the people who say simply do yoga…well I am trying!!!

So I finished my yoga, my legs were burning, my head aching and I felt totally fed up, I knew if I tried to just meditate I would just end up even more frustrated. So I turned to Yoga Nidra which is a type of guided meditation and they do lots of types on you tube from simple 5 minutes ones to all night guided sleep! Check them out if you have insomnia so good!

I lay on my back and closed my eyes in Savasana or Corpse Pose and felt the Earth holding me up, it was so relaxing because I felt like I was a giant just laying on the Earth feeling it spin through space. It was somewhere in this meditation that I realised my body is able to keep up with this yoga practice at the moment, but I felt proud of myself anyway. I have not given up I keep coming back determined to finish the 31 days, so what if I am not doing it every day the point is I would if I could!

Yoga and Buddhism had taught me so much, but yet again it has given me a big moment of clarity, I am not well like most people however I have things that most people also do not have…determination! I set myself a goal and no matter whether I get there today, tomorrow or in 30years it is only through patience, self-love and motivation that I will achieve my goals.

It would be easy to give up and say I have these illnesses and just sit around and watch TV but I still want to learn and grow as a person. I still want to achieve things and yes I kind of still have a five year plan…never give up!

Namaste xxx

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